Women's Circle, with Mr 2yo

We've not had Circle for about a month now, with winter illnesses stopping the get together, so we all felt well over due for some soul nourishing.

Jack, as usual, slept on the journey to Sheree's house, who lives 1.5hrs away.  But this night, maybe coz it was our first day outta hibernating, he was really disorientated when we got out of the car, and worked himself up into hysterics :(  It was rather like what he has been like through the night time of late....he's had times of waking, crying so hard, wont let me touch him, doesn't want water/boob/food, if I can get his nappy changed it makes no difference....so I'm doing my own version of "crying it out", NO not ignoring my little distressed fella, but just holding the space for him, going with the flow of what he needs, whether it be just to leave him alone but be near him, guide him away from pulling at things/kicking things, frustrating expressions.

Thankfully, we had time to ride this out, the other women hadn't arrived yet.  Offering cars to play didn't help, he picked them up and tossed them, but eventually after focusing his gaze on Sheree for a few minutes, he seemed to come to realise where he was and that he was happy to be here!

So far, Jack has been the only child at Circle, and he enjoys the night just as much as Muma ;)

He is offered paper to draw with the pastels and glue pictures on, when we do the exercises, or he simply busy's himself with his collection of cars that we bring along.

This week the big exercise ball caught Jack's eye....... 

As well as the hoola hoops!

And Sheree is always happy to play with him, he's a bit of a fan of her now ;)

In our last term of Mini Maestros, we've just started playing with hoola hoops, so Jack knew he could jump inside it and pull it up over his body, he was delighted to play with them

Spinning the hoola hoop and chasing the bouncing balls

I found this week that Jack is asserting himself, wanting to show he can do things, like use the glue stick without Muma's help, which made our activity interesting...one glue stick and a big boy wanting to cover his whole page in glue!

We got to hear Sheree's story of her perspective of Courtney's birthing, which was beautiful and funny and full of love.  I can't wait to hear Courtney's own account!

I've learnt about a womb healer, one of our gorgeous women is having sessions to help with fertility and healing after miscarriages.  I've keenly grabbed the details and am going to look into it for myself ;)

Our activity this week was an opening piece of paper, on the outside of it we had to show how we think the world sees us......

Firstly, see the pink heart shaped crystal to the right of the pic, it's my birthday present from the gorgeous Brooke ;)  It's so lovely, I was holding it in my right hand most of the night, as my left hand worked on my creation, but then every now and then Jack came and grabbed it and carried it around as he played, so sweet.

So the sun in the bottom right, represents that I try to shine light on darkness, with the rainbow drawn above it showing that I like to add colour to things

The tree on the bottom left is rather dark, but with stars in it, which shows that I don't show a lot of myself to the world, but am starting to shine.  The purple upwards from that is that people can see I try to be more outward, and the blue dashes down is that I stumble in my attempts to interact.

The pic of the face hidden half behind the flower, kinda speaks for itself, that I safely stay hidden away a bit.

The green spiral is that I am coming across to people in a mixed up way, maybe not how I'm intending to portray myself, because of the struggle to be outward.

And the smiley face shows that overall I am coming out as a happy person.

Then on the opened up space, we had to show how we wanted to be seen, what our potential can be, to show ourselves to the world.....

Firstly, I want to share, that the pink flower that I pasted on my inside, Sheree had the same flower, but hers was pasted on the outside!

So, the pink flower for me represents that I want to blossom more, into a better me.

The butterflies fluttering around it shows that I want to be free falling/flying, with no safety net required!

The picture of the wolf howling at the moon in the bottom left is me, more assertive, wanting to get my own viewpoints across and be heard by the world, and the blues coming up from that is showing that it is not anger I want to shout out, but positive and enlightening offerings.

The sun, next to the wolf, was the other half of the darker sun that I pasted on the outside....no more darkness, no more not being sure of myself.

The tree is also the other half of the darker tree on the outside.  This one is baring fruit, representing my growth and my offerings to the world.  The yellow coming up from the fruiting tree is showing that this is absolutely going to radiate outta me!!

The pixie in the top left is representing that I am and still want to be a soft girly woman, gentle in approach, kind in nature, and very loving....which is why she has many hearts around her.

And the rainbow.

This shows that what I want to be, is still me, but such a better, soulfully bigger, version of myself which will beem with inner beauty.

Jack helped me sprinkle the glitter over the page, which gives it extra specialness of my son helping me shine!!

Agghhhhhhh ;)

My cup is now full again xxx