Arrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!
Waking up to the start of signs of another failed cycle is just a peachy way to start the day.
But, didn't we proclaim to be taking a break?
Pffft....do you have any idea how hard it is to let the urge to conceive go????
Near impossible!!
And interestingly, it was Tyler who was doing more of the baby talk this month. I was trying hard to burry it for a bit, but not him.
We were a lot more relaxed though....more back to being all about us and not all about a baby.
It's just as hard to ignore the signs....the signs I've come to know are just my body's these days of leading up to bleeding....bloating...craving.....weird feelings in the general area of my womb. Each month, I remember that this happened last month, yet each new month off I go and do another waisted pregnancy test.....coz I'm so sure this month will be different! Idiot.
THIS HAS GOT TO STOP!!!!!!
I can't pretend I don't want it. But I really need for this time to count for something.
Just like after our miscarriage, I felt completely defeated that we weren't able to concieve within the time that I would have been pregnant with the twins. Had we been able to, I feel it would have made us feel a little less robbed...softened the blow a bit.
So how to make this time count??
I need to be doing something, something that would not be possible to be doing if I were pregnant. Any ideas?
4 rainbow comments:
Well u know the crapola we went thru to get miss m and well when we had all the failed attempts afterwards i actually let it defeat me and said screw u im not doing this anymore... its when i let go that i fell pregnant naturally.. i know its the friggen cliche and i hate that as i told people for years to f themselves and take there stupid just relax attitude and shove it up there asses! you have to be ready to do that though and your clearly not so I think we need a cleansing session.. something similar to what you attended the other day, a great big house clean up and re-deco can make massive changes too... and if all that doesnt work perhaps the next step would be to perhaps see a doctor to ensure that you are actually ovulating.. maybe something like some clomid or metaformin may give ur reprodctive organs a good swift kick up the ass, i know the anger and frustration your feeling now, seeing everyone around you falling pregnant and getting the one thing you so desperately want is heartbreaking, luv u jenjen
sky diving? bungee jumping? get a tattoo? start a course?
((hugs)) I hope it happens for you soon :)
what ebz said... except for the trying hard for miss m stuff... we tried hard for mr x..
hmm doesn't that make him seem all mysterious...
oh oh oh and i joined that gym lime on fston dandy road... and bam 2 weeks later i was pregnant, i kept puttin it off all last year coz of the just in case i got preg factor and then i went stuff it time to get fit and yeh lol.. so what is the one thing you have been putting off just in case you get preg... do whatever that is and u will be preg within 2 weeks.. lol!
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