I HATE my god damn period, loath it, despise it, and all the freakin hormone charged emotional roller coaster and binge eating that goes with it, ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!
Today marks 4dys since I was due for my period.....time enough for the stupid thoughts in my head to send me crazy with the "oh my golly I'm pregnant!" crap....even though I knew I wouldn't be, did a test to satisfy the stupid thoughts, and yet deep down there is always those stupid mind fuck thoughts of "oh the test is wrong!".
FUCK YOU HORMONES, FUCK YOU!!!!!!!
Leading up to every period my god damn fricken hormones play havoc with my body, fucks with my mind to make me think this month, finally, we have conceived. I've felt really ill and dizzy this past week, certainly signs of a pregnancy. Tried not to get my hopes up, knowing it was unlikely. Especially would be pissed off if I was pregnant, not that we don't want it, but that we are taking a break from the stress of the ttc, and it would be so freakin ironic if stopping the active trying was all that was needed for a baby to come along.
But no, not this month again, period was just 4 days late.
Now I get to hopefully at least see my clothes fit more comfy as I bleed out the bloat...... arrrrgh fuck you hormones, fuck you.
I'm off to go eat some chocolate...... ;)
3 rainbow comments:
Grrrrrrrrrr...the joys of being a lady!! Hope your week gets better and lots of chocolate eases your pain ;)
Aww Jen
I still get disappointed if i get a negative preg test and i have 3 kids! And you're right its those little mind games that really screw you up! Hope you feel better soon
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all good things come to those who wait. just relax, stop thinking about getting pregnant and it will probably happen. its most likely that although you made up your mind to stop trying deep down you are still putting pressure on yourselves. in the meantime eat your chocolate and enjoy your jack jack coz life with 2 babies is HARD
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